mood:
I've got a shaw's card hanging from my keychain
yeah, I've paid my dues
made my mark if you will.
I've sat in empty bars
jotted notes on napkins
hoping to find some salvation
and i've found it,
oh, I've found it in the ruble
i've found it in the lives of my brothers and sisters
then i found that like the lives of my brothers and sisters
it was cancelled
my solace crumbled to the ground
leaving an empty carcass of sarcasm
and pretentiousness
now i find i'm lost
so long it took me to be found and free
and so quickly it's gone again
gone, empty, black death
of twenty thousand souls we cared nothing for
'till they were taken from us.
they've left me lost again
wondering how i can move
wondering how i can get out of bed
go to work, open a book, write
I can't write amist this torent
of dispassionate realization
I joke to forget
tomorrow i'll go back to class
I'll try to forget that a building came down
i'll try to forget that while almost losing a brother
i did lose so many others
i lost so many souls today, souls that i had
never met, a soul in there that i could have loved
someone i could have hated
someone that may have worn a dress
one day that reminded me of my mother
someone who may have said two words
that brought me back to the days
when we were all free
when we were all alive
when we were all in control.
mike's words