mood:
today i am going thift/antique shopping with my mother. i like spending time with her. shopping is one of our best ways to connect. we laugh and explore. it's sweet. we talk alot on the drives there. we both have so much to say.
i have the most incredible mother. she is a strong, amazing woman. she knows what she wants, and she knows how to get it. she doesn't settle for second best, ever. she puts herself into everything completely. she is the most giving and responsible woman you you'll ever meet.
last night i went to ri ra's with jeff, nick, justin, and louie. we drank some guinness and listened to a beautiful girl play her music. she played both a guitar and a harmonica. her voice was wonderful. jeff kept trying to talk to her between songs. it was adorable.
then we went to liquid blue to meet up with the girls. casey, jen, and mindy. mindy has lost so much weight since she and justin split. i am slightly worried about her. but, as justin said, we have to trust her judgement and all we can do is kep an eye on her. if things go south, then her friends can ask questions. i hope she is okay. she has a tendency to get depressed and totally hide it.
jen and louie are getting married on valentine's day. for jen's sake, i hope that louie isn't always as flirty as he was last night. maybe it was just the beer, but he seems like a bit of a player. justin had previously said that louie was wonderfully polite. (this is the first time i met him) it seems like british boys are just so whoa full of themselves. damn eurotrash. i'm just kidding.
tonight i am going to meet some of paul's cousins. then, i am going to go visit heather at amy & kevin's house. i haven't spent time with her since the whole "town cryer" incident that happened at the end of the summer. plus, since i broke up with josh, i have been nervous to spend time with that crowd of friends. i feel like the disapprove of my leaving josh. well,t hat's not entirely true. i know that heather thought we were a horrible match up, but justin, matty, marsh, ethan, beth, etc...they think that i didn't give josh a fair chance. they seem to think that i would "grow to love him." that's the stupidest thing i have ever heard. bite me.
so yeah. that's today. let's hope that today goes better than last night.
i acted like a tool last night. i said a few stupid things, and showed nick a side of myself that i really hate. drinking makes me loose lipped. christ. i hate that part of me. bad attitude, etc. i also said something stupid to justin. i actually lied to him about something. i IMed him this morning, however,a nd explained my exaggeration (sp?). he understood, said it was fine. beer makes people stupid, seriously. he apologized to me for louie's behaviour. it's no big deal really.
l: "i like you."
a: "oh yeah? why's that?"
l: "why do people like sunsets?"
a: "because they are beautiful. (pause) oh."
fag.
time to do 100 crunches. then a leafy lunch. no more chubby amy. rawr.
saturday