i'm not exactly sure why, but i'm feeling quite depressed right now. i'm also very irritable, something i haven't been for a long while, really.

is it because i feel foolish and confused regarding my friendship with nick? i must sound like a fucking fool. why don't i just tell him to bugger off already? i don't know. it's probably because i care about him, and we have fun together. but, when he is grumpy, he totally takes it out on me, and i don't understand how or why. i don't deserve that.

or am i irritated because my mother gets on my last nerve with her questioning and constant comments regarding my financal situation. BAHHH.

or am i depressed because i am sick and hardly slept? i should get really high and take a nap. yeah, that sounds like a plan. i'm going to break plans with my mother. sorry, mom. i just can't hack it today.

last entry next entry