what a terrible day yesterday was. and this morning was no better.

i had an anxiety attack last night...first one in over a year. it was not pleasent in the least bit. that is the worst feeling to me. not hing is harder for me to deal with than sudden onsets of anxiety and dispair.

i was so upset. i began to hyperventilate and my mind was spinning. i was thinking teh worst of every possible situation, and i couldn't get to sleep. i cried a bit, slept a bit, and woke up in a terrible sweaty mess with more tears in my eyes. my few winks of sleep were overrun with odd, disturbing flashes of nightmares and negative thought.

i woke up to my phone ringing and a bad attitude from my sleepy ex-boyfriend who seems to feel the need to pretend that he cares about me. also, knocking at my door was a sweet, wonderful guy wanting nothing more but to comfort me and calm me down.

i hate yesterday. in fact, i hate today.

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