me feel suicidal? not very often.

today? yes. why? unsure.

i want to take a tablet cocktail...i few of these pain killers, a few of those muscle relaxers.

sometimes i feel so manic and sometimes i feel so low. it's not very often that i feel this badly, but when it occurs, it's intense.

i got a card in the mail, just as i was mailing out some crazy letter i wrote to nick. ironic ..a bit...who it was from..what it said...and it smelled like him. it was terribly ironic and terribly perfect.

okay i have to stop writing now because i am now thinking of alanis morrisette.

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