mood: crampy. grumpy. in my pjs.
despite the fact that some things feel perfectly right, many things feel terribly wrong in this current situation.
it is frightening how frequantly i catch myself in total denial of this truth.
sometimes i wonder if it is just the thrill of figuring him out. then i want to slap myself silly for even considering such an outstanding falsity.
it is not love; it can't be. love has been defined as being so much more fulfilling. so much more mutual.
what could he possibly want from me?
09.02.02 11:19 pm
i kill people.
i kill people.