he wonders why i am mad at him. he wonders why i go from love to hate. he wonders why i can't tell him these things to his face. i wonder why, too.

i'm angry because he lied to me. he lied to me a lot. he made me think he was one person, when it turns out he is the complete opposite.

i don't like fake people. i don't like people who act like sponges and absorb the personality of whomever it is they are around. i don't like people who do or say waht they need to in order to fit in.

i'm hurt because i trusted him. i'm hurt because i started to fall for him. i'm hurt because i LET myself love him in so many ways.

i love him as a person, even though it doesn't seem like it from the above words. they are angry words, and in a few minutes, i'll probably regret posting them in this journal.

i'm just not in love with him. i can't love someone who doesn't love himself enough to be honest with himself.

i'm so full of rage regarding thsi subject; i could just explode.

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