i really want a cigarette right now.

fuck.

so it turns out i have emotions after all. (lately, i'd felt hollow and indifferent.) i think i have a bit of a broken heart? or something comparable.

the fella i've had my eye on apparently has had his eye on someone else all along. it's not a big thing, really. my hopes of spending some time with him in the next few weeks have been poisoned with this knowledge.

i don't know what i was thinking anyway.

"too good to be true is what he is. he is the type of person that makes me want to be a better person. he's got all of those humble, desirable qualities, you know? and on top of all of that, he is pure sex."

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