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i really shouldnt have spent the night with him again. i know that i dont want a relationship and i know that i dont want a boyfriend or whatever, but i most definately find myself thinking of him. this is something i am not okay with.

he is very critical of others and himself and that makes me a little self-conscious, something that i'm not so worried about with less judgemental people. so while with him, i end up feeling a little less than sexy and a little bit insecure.

but besides that, i find him wonderful. he is in an 'open relationship' which sort of is a good thing, as i know that he doesn't expect more than friendship and casual sex from me. this is relieving and pleasing.

but still, i keep thinking about him and how he is so fun and beautiful. his gf is a lucky girl.

he is younger than i am, too... which is something i was determined to stay away from. but he is quite mature in so many ways. the only immaturity i see is the relationship immaturity, and of course that is something i should most def be staying away from! argh.

i always tend to fall for the wrong guys, eh?

but there will be no drama. it's not like that. it's not like i'm saying i'm in love... god no. it's just that i don't want to be fondly thinking of him.

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