i really dispise the feeling of jealousy. i think that is is poison in my heart and mind.

jealousy is a poison tipped dart, sniper shot at me in the dark...at the most inoppurtune times. shitty shitty shitty.

i have confidence and self-esteem enough to be a healthy woman, but these twindges of jealousy sure know how to shake up my self-image. sometimes these feelings define me, for days and weeks at a time. what does this say about me? am i weak? what the fuck. i long for simplicity.

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