if i could see past my tears, i would very likely write a detailed elaboration of what i am feeling right now. in short, i will note this:

being hit in the face with the sour knowledge that your love is not returned...it burns, it chokes, it drains, and it suck. for shit...i swear this love thing is for shit.

amy: i can't stand things anymore :-(

and i am sick of being alone. i'm not this type of person. i need to share my life with someone, i can't stand being alone like this :-( i have too much to say and experience to be by myself with no one to share it with. it sucks :-( and i am too choosy so i will probably stay alone for a long time when i shouldnt have to

i cant :-(

friend: no you wont

amy: i have no reason to believe otherwise .no reassurance or comfort or anything

friend: i dont know what to say

amy: i know :-(

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