i have a hard time believing people when they tell me that i make them feel "good." it is difficult for me to believe for a few reasons. i won't get into these reasons right now, for i fear that my entire lunch break would be consumed if i attempted to elaborate.

i think this trust issue is my major problem in relationships. i find myself doubting people's intentions and emotions. of course i cannot blame anyone but myself for this; i am the only one who controls my actions...and i've made some bad decisions in the past.

at one point in time, i made all choices by what my heart told me to do, and now, it's all about what my head suggests. hopefully soon, i will find that happy medium and be able to make sense out of all of these things. in the meantime, i hope i don't ruin...things.

music:nappy roots

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