it's my own fault that i feel so unfulfilled most of the time. it depresses me to think that i have done this to myself. i mean, my friends tell me that i am so "jet-set," but what the fuck does THAT mean? and what does it mean coming from people who are more sheltered than i am? actually, let me correct that: i am far from sheltered, i'm just becoming stagnant.

it's not like i haven't travelled and experienced things, i have. but living in maine for basically 26+ years? that is something i do not take pride in. there is an entire world out there...and this world is meant to be discovered and explored. i need out of here, and in a bad way. this isn't where i belong. it isn't healthy. i feel like i am becoming one of the new england clones.

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